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Name: Elerin
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Francisco
Birthday: 5/31/1987
Gender: Female
Expertise: being a nerd and a loser...seriously, i'm really good at that....
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| There's a man playing sitar on a bench between my house and the Towers 1 building. I hate the towers, or rather, I hate the ambulances that come to the towers and the fact that ambulances have to come to the towers. It's been sunny and oppressive all day, but now it's cloudy and not much better. My house is a disaster. My life is a disaster. And I don't want to move to Russia. I might cut splenda out of my diet, it might help, I don't know. I've spent most of the day in bed. I need to pack and move and know where I'm moving to and and and stuff. I hate summer so much. Every year, every year...
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| God, he called for rain
So I built an ark, but no rain came
I was ashamed
Man, he called for war
So I built a gun and I joined the corps
But I was unsure
Love, she asked for more
But what I gave only made her poor
I wasn't sure
The dove, she promised land
As she laid the branch right into my hand
There was no land
Ooh, what does it mean to be here?
Well, I know because I can and I will
Yes, I know because I can and I will
Ooh, what does it mean to be here?
Well, I know because I can and I will
Ooh, what does it mean to be here?
Well, I know because I can and I will
Yes, I know because I can and I will | | |
| No one will know what this is about, which is fine. It's mostly written because I'm tired and frustrated, and I can't fuss any more, so I'm just laying out my thoughts for the purpose of being able to sleep without crying over my powerlessness. Indeed, blogging is a form of power. And a generally healthy one, because no one cares.
1. The conversation between Job and his friends goes like this: a friend says "God is like this; we know it because of whatever (some of the answers reflect the Psalms and Wisdom Lit for sure, and Rick says the "Deutoronomistic histories" are there, too) and this is what has been passed down to us, what everyone knows (which, you realize is the B.C.E. equivalent to the Bible)." Then Job says, "But I know God, and He might be like that -- but I know what's going on, and that doesn't fit." So, just saying, you are not necessarily right because you quote the Bible.
2. I think television is a curse upon people to distract Christians who would otherwise use that time and thought for better things. Probably in a similar fashion to blogging and facebook.
3. The Anchor is scary because the Anchor is strange. God is overpowering and -- believe it or not -- very strange, very Other, to our way of life. Indefinable is scary. And God is capable of taking care of us, sin and all. Therefore, if you see someone who goes to the Anchor and does something you think is sin (let's say smoking or drinking, as it's common), that person is probably someone who God either has not told that it's wrong (you can add "yet" here if you want) or has explicitly told that's it's okay. You must realize that smoking is not all that much worse for you than overeating, and if other churches can have potlucks after church on Sunday for socializing, I personally have no problem with people hanging out on the front porch smoking. We trust God to deal with people, and He does. Sometimes, if someone is doing something wrong, a friend confronts the person at God's leading; sometimes a sermon speaks to the person; sometimes a stranger comes up to the person with a word from God; sometimes the Bible or prayer or life experiences or whatever -- communing with God -- shows the person it's wrong. Whatever the case, God takes care of us.
4. If we all listened to what the "older and wiser" people around us said, we would all be Jewish. Or, rather, I guess we'd just all be pagan, since we're "Judeo-Christian" but not Jewish. Anyway, there would have been no Martin Luther, for sure. And if we all listened to ourselves alone, there would be no Christians.
5. A word on women. Indeed, we are to submit to our husbands; to men in general, I would assume, especially when they are Christians and when we are unmarried. Indeed, I am no good at that. Perhaps my failure at it gives me no room to talk about men's failure in similar areas, but I will anyway. Right before wives are told to submit to their husbands (Ephesians 5:22), Paul calls all believers to submit "one to another" (Eph. 5:21). That includes men. Just as wives we are to submit as the Church submits to Christ, husbands are told to love their wives like Christ loves the Church. That's a tall order. In any case, it is also important to realize that we are told as Christians to refuse to enforce rule when it benefits us. The last shall be first and the first shall be last, and so on. Also, Peter talks about the relationships of wives and husbands in chapter 3 of his first book. Then, in chapter 5, he warns those in leadership positions to not "lord it over those in your charge" (5:3). It is not my responsibility to make sure all the believers are submitting one to another (which, you know, includes to me), and it is not a man's responsiblity to boss a woman around.
6. When Christ talked about fasting, He didn't say, "Do not fast like the hypocrites." He said, "When you fast, do not look dismal, like the hypocrites" (Matt. 6:16). Therefore, it is easily seen that God not only accepts fasting but assumes it to be a part of our lives as His servants. Note also that He doesn't specify the reason or the "substitution" that should be done during fasting. Sometimes, I think, action is sanctified of itself by God, and that's all there is to it.
7. We are His servants. He set us free, for sure, but that freedom always assumes slavery to Christ. After all, you gotta serve somebody (which, I've heard, is a Bob Dylan song or something), and God knows it's better to serve God than to serve sin. Paul introduces himself as a slave to Christ. The call to die to sin is quite often combined with the call to therefore live to righteousness. There must be something to replace your master, but He will be quite different from your old one. However, it is not at all uncommon (or it shouldn't be) to find a Christian bowing down and worshiping this wonderful, amazing new Master we've gotten. Nor should there be any problem when we bow down to those who bring us messages from that Master. We've lost the art of honoring people. In Hebrew tradition, an angel goes before every person blowing a trumpet and announcing, "Make way! Make way! Here comes the image of God!" St. Agnes watches over me. I don't ask her for salvation, but I do, from time to time, mention that she might bring me up to God with such-and-such in mind -- it's kind of Easterny, like "Oh, Esther, could you bring up my daughter to your cousin? She is a very wonderful girl and they would get along so nicely!" I feel we're friends (though I recognize her place as the much older and wiser friend), and I have no problem asking one friend to remember me to Another. You ask your earthly "alive" friends to pray for you, why not saints?
I guess that's all. I'm tired and not nearly as frustrated. Thank you, xanga, for being such a wonderful friend.
~me(e)
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| If I ever end up in hell -- which I certainly hope will never happen -- I think it will something like this:
I will be eternally wrapping bagels in noncooperative plastic wrap that tears diagonally and gets stuck on itself. And the bagels will be those gross sticky greenish ones with those sunflower-esque seeds on them. And sesame seed and onion ones, too. And there will be TONS of them, never ending. There would be no where to wash my hands, and I would have to wrap them on a table that's just below waist-level, which makes you bend over. And there would be no one to give them to; it'd just be useless and painful. For ever and ever. Oh my gosh, that's absolutely terrifying. You have no idea.
Being thrown out where there are bagels to be wrapped and gnashing of teeth would scare me at least a hundred times more than eternal fire. I'm going to bed now.
~me(e)
p.s. I thought I should clarify that I don't /really/ dislike wrapping bagels. I just think that if it were devoid of purpose, slightly more disgusting, and eternal, it would be, like, the fourth or fifth layer of hell.
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| 13Now there was no food in all the land, because the famine was very severe, so that the land of Egypt and the land of Canaan languished because of the famine. 14Joseph gathered all the money that was found in the land of Egypt and in the land of Canaan for the grain which they bought, and Joseph brought the money into Pharaoh's house. 15When the money was all spent in the land of Egypt and in the land of Canaan, all the Egyptians came to Joseph and said, "Give us food, for why should we die in your presence? For our money is gone." 16Then Joseph said, "Give up your livestock, and I will give you food for your livestock, since your money is gone." 17So they brought their livestock to Joseph, and Joseph gave them food in exchange for the horses and the flocks and the herds and the donkeys; and he fed them with food in exchange for all their livestock that year. 18When that year was ended, they came to him the next year and said to him, "We will not hide from my lord that our money is all spent, and the cattle are my lord's. There is nothing left for my lord except our bodies and our lands. 19"Why should we die before your eyes, both we and our land? Buy us and our land for food, and we and our land will be slaves to Pharaoh. So give us seed, that we may live and not die, and that the land may not be desolate." 20So Joseph bought all the land of Egypt for Pharaoh, for every Egyptian sold his field, because the famine was severe upon them. Thus the land became Pharaoh's. 21As for the people, he removed them to the cities from one end of Egypt's border to the other. 22Only the land of the priests he did not buy, for the priests had an allotment from Pharaoh, and they lived off the allotment which Pharaoh gave them. Therefore, they did not sell their land. 23Then Joseph said to the people, "Behold, I have today bought you and your land for Pharaoh; now, here is seed for you, and you may sow the land. 24"At the harvest you shall give a fifth to Pharaoh, and four-fifths shall be your own for seed of the field and for your food and for those of your households and as food for your little ones." 25So they said, "You have saved our lives! Let us find favor in the sight of my lord, and we will be Pharaoh's slaves." 26Joseph made it a statute concerning the land of Egypt valid to this day, that Pharaoh should have the fifth; only the land of the priests did not become Pharaoh's. | | |
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